Night Terrors

I believe I may have mentioned this in a previous post but it happened again last night, so I'm going to go into greater depth here.

Last night I felt very anxious as I went to bed.  I've been feeling depressed over the last couple of weeks and I drastically overreacted to something that Eva did late last night and felt absolutely terrible about it.  (I did not hurt her at all, but I may have scared her.  I was trying to get her to take a submissive posture and ended up forcing it.  Sooooo not helpful in our trust relationship.  If you don't remember, Eva is my dog.)

So I felt very bad about myself when I went to bed, and I think that may be the source of the dream I had last night.

I remember I was in the water with three other people and I knew that there was something else in the water with us.  Not human but not animal.  It was humanoid, thin, and short, and had some sort of wings, and I could see it as a sort of shadow.  I had the impression that the only reason I could see it was that it was in the water.  The other three people couldn't see it so I was telling them where it is.  As I continued shouting out directions, I started losing my ability to talk.  My words came out garbled or not at all. 

And the next thing I knew it was attached to my lower back.  I had the feeling that it was somehow invading my body.  So I told it to get out of my body, in the Name of Jesus Christ.  The words came out clear the first time, and when I tried to repeat them, they came out garbled again.  And then I woke up.

And the first sensation I had upon waking was that of it leaving through my lower back.  Like my dream was a manifestation of something that was actually happening.  I don't know if that was the last vestiges of the dream hanging on into my waking state, or something else.  But I was terrified.  It took me about ten minutes to get the courage to get up and go to the bathroom.  'Cause I really had to go.

So today I feel like I didn't get any sleep at all.  My brain is functioning at half capacity.  And I've come to the realisation that since adolescence I have always woken up from really bad dreams with the sensation of something touching my lower back.  And if I tried to move it sent the most disgusting nervy sensation up and down my spine.  I wonder if that has any significance.

So if any of you out there know of any spirit healers (Christian or otherwise) who could shed some light on this sort of thing, I'd love to hear it.  Because I would like it to stop.  Forever.  And I'm thinking I might need some help with that.

Love,
     -Nan